A New Thing

Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you
not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.
Isaiah 43:19

If only I could perceive IT, if only I could truly believe he is doing a new thing. If only.... Why can't I trust that a new thing is a good thing!

Opportunities will arise that have the potential to completely knock us off our feet, causing us to fight, and reach for something to hold onto until we find our balance. What or who we grab onto makes all the difference in the world. I wish I could say I automatically  reach for Jesus, and regain my balance quickly, but that would be far from the truth.Sometimes you just want someone with skin on, some people have less skin on now because of me, I still have some of Buddy's skin under my nails! I have grabbed onto people that I had no business taking hold of, nothing or no one on this earth is as solid as the Rock, the only one who can steady us and plant our feet firmly on solid ground.

My feet got knocked off balance just a little bit when I returned home from Nicaragua; going in to see Taylor she tells me she has taken a new job. What? Wait.... What? (insert picture of me grabbing, grasping, trying to hold on) I know for some of you, your thinking; what is the big deal? Well my options were 1. Start all over with a new Counselor 2. Just stop counseling all together 3. Pray and trust God is doing a new thing, and to perceive it.....

Ok, let's walk through those options....1. Start all over? Not on your life. As far as I was concerned this was a one way ticket, no redirecting, no plane changes, nothing, nada. There was no way I was going to tell someone new all I had already told Taylor. Seriously, was not happening. (grabbing onto Taylor here....) 2. Stop counseling all together, as bad as I wanted to be finished, I knew I wasn't done. There were still many, many things I needed to untangle about myself so that I could help others. I truly wanted to be who God created me to be, and to be used by Him. I knew I still had a lot to work through. 3. Pray and trust.......That really should have been my #1, see what I mean? Did I really think God had brought me this far only to abandon me in the end? Oh ye of little faith.... Mental note, read Hebrews 11 when I get home....the Hall of Faith chapter. :) Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

Conviction of things not seen, do you not perceive (see) it..... beginning to think He has something for me to "see".........

As I left that day we talked about how she knew I wasn't ready to be finished, and she believed starting over wasn't a good option, (but much better than stopping). There was a possiblility I could go for a few months at her new job, but she had to get approval. It was at a local University, with the requirement that you are either a student or on staff....I was neither...This is where we Pray and trust. I remember telling the Lord as I drove off that day, I am willing to do whatever you want me to, and trusting that if someone else is needed to finish the journey of counseling with me, so be it. I didn't much like it, but who am I to say no one else was capable of helping me like Taylor has.....We wouldn't meet again for a few weeks, Taylor was making the transition into the new job. She assured me when we did meet again, I would know if I would continue with her or start over with someone new. Choosing to grab onto Jesus, feet firmly planted on the Rock, I was ready for what the next part of the journey looked like...I couldn't yet percieve it, but I was willing to trust He was doing a new thing....

For I know the plans I have for you,
says the Lord, plans for your welfare
and not for evil, to give you a future
and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11